my curse

Hey

So I am officially a college girl now

I am currently studying Human Resource Management at Akademi Pimpinan Perusahaan.

Remember in my last post I stated how I kinda hoped I get in to that campus so it wouldn’t cost a lot of money.

Well it did come true and here I am

I still don’t understand why the fuck I could get in here though. I mean, I didn’t even study for the test and I did the test basically by my own imagination and my fucked up logic.

I don’t even like this major though, I don’t even know or like any of these thing in Human Resource Management.

My heart  still in English Literature because I absolutely like culture, english, writing, et cetera.

I am basically doing this because my hell of a mother forced me to.

Because she said my future would be great if I get in this college and take this major YEAH BUT WHAT ABOUT MY HAPPINESS AND MY PASSION IN JOURNALISM mom?

I still have no idea what I would be after graduating from here I mean when I graduate from here I only get a diploma degree not a bachelor and it’s human resource management and it’s limited and FOR FUCK SAKE MY MAJOR ONLY LEARNS ENGLISH FOR 2 BLOODY SEMESTERS GEE MY FAVORITE SUBJECT:”””(

I have to learn such things as business math, accounting, economy, ALL OF THOSE SHITS THAT I’VE BEEN AVOIDING IN HIGH SCHOOL GEE AM I CURSED OR WHAT

My heart is screaming “what the fuck are you doing in here you idiot” everytime I enter a class

Anyway, I think I’m gonna try the sbmptn thingy again next year AND HOPEFULLY I CAN GET THAT MOTHERFUCKING ENGLISH LITERATURE PROGRAM.