IT'S FREAKING 2014!!!!!
I still feel kind of weird typing '2014'. It seems so unreal. I mean I still feel last year was 2011.
It's freakin' amazing how a year kind of flew by so freakin' fast but sometimes feel kind of a long time ago too. I must say that I'm not really ready to face this year.
Why? because in this year I'll graduate from high school, going to college, meet new people, and basically in this year, I'll have to face the whole new situation and let's be honest I'm not good at being comfortable in new situation.
I'm not ready to face the future. I'm not ready to grow up just yet.
I still want to be with my friends, my family, and my life now. But in order to growing up, I'll have to learn to say goodbye to the things that have always been my comfort zone. I'm sooo not ready.
And graduating from high school means it's the end of my school life, because in college it'll be a whole lot different and I'll have to take care of myself if I want to survive. No more uniforms, no more sitting with your classmates and joking, no more wake-up-at-dawn-so-you're-not-late anymore.
It still scares me how 3 years of my high school life now have to come to an end. Like seriously I still feel I was only a junior last year and being so threatened by my senior and now I am one. I've been dreaming about my high school life since elementary school and now it's about to end?!
In 3 years, I've faced the ups and downs of my life. Whether it's in school, friendship, or family. I've had so many problems, difficult ones, in the past 3 years of my high school life. I've met a lot of people and some of them became my best friends now. A strangers that I once thought I'd never be friends with, is now my bestfriends. A friends that once who had always stick together with me, we're now drifting apart. My life now, is not the same as last year or a year before. I actually never even thought my life could be different. I actually have never imagined my life could change, that my life could be better. And my life is getting better.
I just wish this year, my life will continue on getting better eventhough I also scared that since 2014 is the year that everything in my life is about to change, I'm scared it'll be a worse kind of change. But let's not be bitter, and have faith in whatever God had planned me to be or to do in this year. Let's see a year ahead what I'll be writing about this year.Cheers!
