have you ever wondered about life? especially your life. well.......... I know I've been thinking about that and there are a lot of questions in my head about my life.
I've been thinking about life like in my own opinon, my life(or everybody's life?) is made of small pieces of memory. I mean, what you are now is a person that created by your past(get it?). And your past feelings and emotions.
I also think that everybody's including me are dying. why? because each day we become closer and closer to our death. scary? But it's a fact. We have a time here in this world and sooner or later we're gonna run out of time. We just don't know how, when, and where will we gonna die. And when your time's up, you can't do anything about it. All you have to do is just wait in somewhere out of this world(i don't know what is that place) that God has created for the dead people.
So I appreciate people who do the best they can do whether in their relationship with God or relationship with other people or in their carrer because they know that life is only happen just once and once is enough for those people.
For myself, I'm not those people(yet). I'm still wasting my time here in this world doing nothing. I still haven't figure out what I want to do in my life. I still get lost if someone ask me about my future. I don't know what I want to be remember with. All I know is I wanna have successful carrier and become better than my parents. I wanna be remembered by people because of my good deeds.
Funny thing is that I'm still 16 years old and I'm thinking about all of that stuffs. Is it make me weird? because normally a 16 year old girls usually think about make-up, boys, hang-out, partying, and other things. While here I am alone thinking about that. But it doesn't mean I don't think about that 'normal' stuffs. I do sometimes, but in a sarcastic way like 'what is the purpose of doing that?' or 'does it affect their future?'. Yeah, that's weird. Sometimes I wanna be like that too, like those 'normal' teenagers but then I don't want to. I am more interested in doing something that more valuable to me. Why? probably because I've been through problems that they haven't even face.
that is my thoughts........... I just wanna spill it out into words sorry if there's a bad/wrong grammars:)
