what I want to do in my life.

So, I've been thinking a lot about what I want to do with my life. like what I really wanna do in the future and it came down to this 3 option:
1. Fashion thing
why? because I really like combining items like creating a style for people and eventhough I'm not a really fashionable person(because I'm not rich) trust me, I still catch up the latest news from the industry(i guess). at least I know some fashion brands, the designers, and models, or anyhing else. And If I want to be in this 'fashion' business, I'm quite sure about the job. I can be a stylist or editor in some magazine because I like styling people and I'm too ugly to be a model and too dumb at designing to be a designer.
2. Politics/Human rights/Justice
why? because I'm aware about today's news and about what happening now in my country. the politic situation is chaos in here and too many corruption in this country and I really want to change it. I really wanna stop this cycle of corruption. I just don't know how. and because of the corruption, politics, and injustice, other people's life is in danger. because to be on top some people can do anything even it is not right. and even it means they have to destroy other people's life. that's really awful. I really can't tell the difference between human and animal lately. because if you do such an awful thing like that, I'm sorry but you're not even a human. what the hell is happening about the value of humanity? aren't we as a human born with intellect and blessed with human rights? so why do we keep hurting each other and destroy each other as if they don't mean anything? why do we chase something that is not gonna last forever like money? yes money can buy you things but does money make you go straight to heaven? nope.
and then in my country there are a lack of tollerance about each other's religion. that is another thing that I really want to change. because I've seen terrible things. I've seen what people from another religion did to my religion. they burned the curch, they demand the government to shut down a church. why? because they said that we're a noise and it is bothering them. wtf?!
3.Work at the United Nations.
why? because eventhough I'm not the nicest people all the time, I really enjoy helping people. I really enjoy if I can make someone smile or happy. and I really want to explore the world. I want to meet people from a different country who needed help and getting involved helping them. I don't wanna be just another philanthropist who donates the money to people. I want to spend time and sharing the same situation with other people, so I can really understand what they feel. I want to help the starving kids, orphanage, and other people who aren't as lucky as I am. Maybe if I work for the UN, I can do all of that! And some of my friends and family think that it is not a good idea because I can't get a lot of moneys from that and they said I should considering work for the government if I want to succes in my future. But that's not the point, I don't work just for the moneys. I'm chasing the experience! I mean, if I work for the government what kind experience I can get? just driving to the office, spend the whole day at the office, got stuck at the traffic on the way home. No, that's not what I want. I want to do something that actually meant something to somebody's life. I want to travel around the world, meeting new people, learn new culture, and I can get all of that while I'm helping other people, right?

So, that's all. maybe one day I'll get the perfect future for me. maybe one day I'll be a environmental lawyer who works for the United Nation while opening a new clothing line! hey nothing's impossible, right? even the words itself I'M-POSSIBLE:)